I am unemployable. I admit it, I don't know why I am, but time has proven this to me. The last time someone hired me for a job was in my teens - no, I was 22 and at uni. A bar hired me to do some shifts, but then again, I did know the owner, so...
I've been actively looking for a job for over a year and haven't had a single interview in that time/ The only potential job offer came from an agency who had seen my CV (resume) on another site, and thought I might be perfect for her client in Paris (dream job & salary!) but after discussion, I felt I wouldn't be up to the position, as it was more tech-based than I am used to. When I work in studios, I'm using the equipment, but to produce sound, and their job was fixing mixing desks etc. That's just not my area.
So anyhoo, aside from that near-miss, I'm just sitting here, looking like this, as my friend Peter used to say. All my life, I've been self-employed, so it's only in the past few years - since the smoking ban - that I've been actively searching. Don't get me started on the government crippling my business beyond repair, and all the pubs and clubs that shut because of loss of revenue, aaaargh!!!!
I printed off my CV and trotted into town the other day. Every employment agency knocked me back. I didn't even think they could do that! People go in there with no skills whatsoever, and they get help creating a CV and finding a job, so I guess my face didn't fit. At worst, they could have said, "Well, we need to re-work your CV," not "Sorry, I think you're better going elsewhere. What is this?
I have so much experience through being a musician - I've contracted for TV companies, schools, record labels, worked with vulnerable groups (disabled, addicts, and ex-cons), and I can learn ANY task (I'm super intelligent! Not that it helps!) but I'm not worth dealing with, wtf?
What put me in a really pissy mood was how the woman who walked in behind me at one place pretty much said the same thing as me, and they booked HER an interview. Sometimes, one is right to be paranoid. Clearly, that company wasn't being objective.
So, I'm sitting here, ever-spiralling into more and more debt, with more skills than I know what to do with, and no idea how to get out of this eddy. My new online store is starting to make sales, but not fast enough or high enough for me to rely on as a source of income. I feel like banging my head against a brick wall.
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